1st anniversary

I cannot believe that I've been in the blogosphere for about a year now!
a lot has changed, except my grammatical mistakes - I think that would take more than 2 years to finally be perfecto.

Anyways getting back to changes. Yeah, I changed, I'm not as happy as I used to be.
I'm not as adventurous,
as athletic,
as CRAZY,
as nice,
as positive (and the list goes on and on) as I used to be.

No I'm not complaining! maybe it's just time for me to be more conserved.
And yes I put crazy in capital, coz seriously, I really need to get a mental care back then.

You know, it's like my imagination is a funky mix of LSD and natural euphoria. muahah

Short story.

In my senior year back in high school, I had my period, thus I couldn't go to the mosque and pray.. So, I felt bored not doing anything, I found a white cloth and a box of 'Norit', (black tablets for stomachache and diarrhea) I put the powdery consistency onto my eyelid and all over my eyes - so it looks like I'm half dead - and I tied the white cloth around my head and I crouched in the corner of my class to wait for all the other girls who had just finished praying to come and see me looking like a 'pocong' (top notch the scariest ghost category ever)... and I stayed there for like 12 minutes. so yeah the rest of the story contains screaming here and there.

The End

So you see? when I said mental care, I totally mean it.

again, back to changes, yeah it's like impossible for me to do such things anymore.
I mean I would if the people around me were my junior high & high school friends,
now, yeahhh .. life isn't a playground anymore. I have to face things that are more deep, I guess? or more grown up-y, like dealing with how to manage my credit card, money, insurance, financial aid, actually budgeting all my expenses, facing future colleagues, networking for future jobs, and maintaining good reputation and sh*t. <---- cham please, all of the above are nothing compare to what people are really facing day by day.

But true, I was a small little spoiled brat, and I learned a lot by moving here, wait, I'm still learning btw.. and yeah I'm still a spoiled brat occasionally, but overall I moved on from my blissful crazy old days, I could go the entire day not eating anything to make my physical appearance more sexehhhh o____o and now I wouldn't do such a thing coz I might not have the energy to concentrate, study and do my homework *what?!!! haha.

and things that doesn't change are:

• my sleep deprivation, my addiction to sweets,
• my hopeless romantic-ness that I covered so well for the past few years,
• my procrastination due to tv shows and movies,
• my obsession with vampires (and no, not twilight, it all started w/ interview with the vampire,all the oldies vampire movies and buffy of course, and true blood for sure! daa?)

So that's it for now... even though this is a useless blog, but I'm glad I can write stuff and share it with anyone that might have a similar case like moi.

Adios! Buenos Noches, wait or should I say Buenos Días!??

Dudes .. hellow!!

I'm taking a break out of my ordinary rituals. I've done several amusements; looklet, uploading pics, BNET-ing, facebook-ing, twittering, (OMG, I just realized that "twittering" is an official word now? damn!) and even snacking, but still I couldn't concentrate on my Business Law readings and Creative Strategies market research project. sighhh .. I'm just one lazy b*tch.

Ok, let's take a journey to the la la land for a bit, grab a cardigans and put on your converse...


close your eyes...


if you feel weird and there's that annoying song from an ice cream truck that keeps on playing inside your mind, then open your iTunes and pick a song... pick a song you really really like!

right now I'm playing Richard Ashcroft - Song for the Lovers


close your eyes again...


just go to wherever your mind is taking you, wherever your song is guiding you.
just stay that way 'til the end of the song and feel it, really feel it ...

the peacefulness...
the outrages or maybe the ordinary-but-fun scene you've pictured while you were closing your eyes and listening to that particular song.

This is what I got ...

In conclusion, it's all in the mind. When you feel distressed, depressed, cranky, annoyed, bored, lazy, or unproductive, just do that for like 5 to 10 min, and maybe just maybe you'll feel better.. you'll feel recharged. Or in my case, I feel like taking a long nap and just deal with these projects last minute. Buahahah.

Adios!

***

So you're leaving
If you have to go
Then go
But my heart's going with you

For the less you say
The more I want to hear
The less you give
The more that I receive

So you're leaving
If you have to go
I'll be waiting for
Waiting for the next time that you're near me

And I don't know why I want you
And I don't know why I need you
But I know you have my love
So sliently you thrill me
So silently you win me
It's the silent type for me

So you're leaving
If you have to go
I'll be waiting for
The next time you are here

So you're leaving
If you have to go
I'll be waiting
For the next time that you come around

So if you get to thinking
The same as I've been dreaming
Then let me know
Just let me know

When you leave me
And you have to go
Then you gotta go
But my heart's going with you

If you leave me
And you have to go
I'll be waiting for
Waiting for the next time that you come

If you have to go
I'll be waiting
I'll be waiting for the next time
Waiting for the next time

So you're leaving
If you have to go
I'll be waiting for you next time lover
Waiting for you next time

***

So I guess in another life time?
or maybe someday in the future?
we'll bump into each other again like when we first met, we can reset this and do this all over again :] agree?? hahahaaaa..
oh gosh ..you're leaving me with too many footprints ...

late night cravings

Since I'm mad hungry but I can't eat anything since it's 3.34 and I'm on a diet ..
I'll just post some pics of my favorite grub ..

First stop,

Martabak Manis - a owey goewy fluffier, thicker, and fatter version of a pancake usually filled with ground peanuts, sesame seeds, chocolate sprinkles, shredded cheese, and as a garnish, condense milk and some buttery spread on top!
Unfortunately I'm alergic to peanuts, so instead I ask for cashews or I just ask for chocolate sprinkles and shredded cheese as a filling. Be sure to get some bite of this fatty snack when you're in Indonesia or try and make one.. this link might come in handy:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SwvZyYa7tOo

Secondly,

Crispy tempe penyet - It's a dish consist of crispy battered tempeh, lots and lots of sambal (a mixture of spices and chillies) as a condiment or should I say as a sauce, and raw veggies as a side. Usually people eat it with hot steamy rice, but I'm on a low-carb diet, and I can manage to reduce the spicy-ness by drinking lots of Teh Botol. lol!

here's a link for the recipe,
http://wwwdapur.blogspot.com/2009/11/tempe-penyet.html
but in addition ..
before you fry the tempe, put the slices of tempeh on a bowl filled with flour that's already mixed with spices such as black peppers, salt, and coriander.
Pat the tempeh with the flour mixture and than fry it to perfection ;)

Enjoy .. Good night all, and this time for real! Coz I really need to sleep!

Flashback

Ohh it's been a while since my last blog post .. (wait have u notice that I unconsciously like to use that sentence as a starting point? hmmm) I don't what to say, so much to tell, so many pictures to share, so much typing to do! Oh well .. I'm gonna start by babbling how much I hate my Spring semester.

So guess what I'm doing on a las tres y media?? f-ing Estudio!! Dios mio!!
I'm like in the middle of studying my microeconomics quiz and I guess I'm at that point where the equilibrium of my mind and soul are not planning to intercept anytime soon.. say what cham?? Actually I have no idea..that's how confound I am right now.

You see the effect of the stupidity I made on the day when class registration started?
I feel so foolish to even think that I could manage to get all A's on the not-so-cute & not-so-easy 6 classes that I'm taking right now.
Cham, please! U're not Intan for God sakes !!! btw, if you guys have time check out her website http://www.intansdesign.com/

So for now lets enjoy the decomposition of Mischa Sitompul ... *sigh.
Buenos Noche mis amigas!

give me a moment

give me a moment to reminisce, reminisce the time we had ...

from the reckless things we did
the laughter
the fights
the memorable places we went
the left-over you ate
the drive to our fav. coffee place
the movies we watched
the dreams
the consequences of our childishness
......the end......

after a few years lacking of butterflies, goosebumps and sparks, I finally gave out the last teardrops for you .. my first teardrops that fell after a long numbness ..

I never felt more relief,
I finally realized that it's time to let go and move on.

another toilet seat post =P

Can't help not to post an entry today, I need to pour down all my thoughts into words...

Here I am trying to enjoy my last few days here and failing as I'm doing so... Why tho? why?

I just found out that this semester I have to face many tough professors, oh God how am I going to keep an outstanding GPA if that's the case. scholarship seems so far far away -_____-

And another thing, I wanna work! a P/T job as a baby sitter, pet sitter or any slow-paced jobs so that I could study while also working. errrrr I just wanna make extra money, so that I could turn this dream of buying my own Chanel bag to come true.

I wanna move!!! I can't help it, I wanna have my own space! errrr ... I wanna be able to cook anytime I want, able to clean my place anytime I feel like doing it, able to decorate my apt. the way I like it, able to dance around the whole apartment naked ... hmmm O__o

I just feel like blabbering ...

promise, tomorrow will be a happy post!

Confuse

Have you ever felt that you love two or three person at the same time?

Well, that's how I totally feel right now, but scratch the person and change it to places!!

Can't believe my final days in Jakarta are counted ... I feel all confuse again, I love my hometown so much that sometimes I just feel like moving back here again,
My family,
My friends,
My lovely and loyal car,
The street food, ohh .. the food!
The cheap shopping places,
The pirated DVD's,
The life!!

but on the other hand,
I hate the pollution,
I hate the snobby people,
I hate the fact that I can only go to that certain hip spots over and over again.
I hate that I need to deal w/ traffic jam like half of the time I got on a 24hour bases.
I hate the slow internet connection

and sometimes Jakarta is mad boring and all you can do is just sit around and do nothing but gossiping, but sometimes that's just so fun to do right?

but but BUT .. the thing that makes me hard to say goodbye to Indonesia is..
mi amor BALI!
I know, I know, you guys are probably tired of me saying that I'm in love with the place so much that I would give up anything to live my whole life there.

well, I wont give up my last few semesters at FIT for that! but I'm seriously considering BALI as a third stop of my roller coaster life.

Who knows right? maybe I'll find a cute Italian guy who owns a little restaurant in Seminyak, Bali and he'll also speak Bahasa Indonesia mad fluently and yet still able to converse with words in which I might not understand at all but it'll most def. sound mad romantic and maybe he'll be like so rich that he also owns a med-size house with a beach front and coz he's like very family oriented that he's going to provide me a ticket back and forth NY-JKT-BALI 4x a year! or maybe like 6x a year for JKT since my grandparents and my cousins would still be there, but since my parents are going to be in Bali anyway, let's make it 5x a year! that's enough rite?

wait... I must be dreaming way tooo high! I just realized I'm still sitting on my toilet seat when I should be showering mad pronto!

P.S: I'm using too many 'MAD' in this post.. ok! gotta blast!

delaying all obligations

ohmy ohmy! it's been a while since my last blog post. I'm still overwhelmed by the thought of going back home (Indonesia) twice in a year! That's so un-mischa ;P

first of all, happy new year 2010! for those in need of a resolution, get up and do it!! don't just mention it to people and onto a paper and not turning it into a reality!

secondly, I hope you guys are gaining weight all together, hand-by-hand, with me. All I do in Bali was eat and eat. oh don't let me start on that exquisite trip! it'll just make me blubbler! argh. I just can't help it I love that place so much, it's like every time I'm there I can't help not falling in love with it again and again. Each of my trip to Bali has their own theme and each is such an irreplaceable moment. and this I thank my God for the blessing and of course the funds bestowed and transferred to my parents account.

third point, how's everyone with their vacation and the what not? I hope y'll have a great start on this first month of 2010 I really wanna know what you guys are doing..

last but not least, I want to tell y'll something..
the hell with uncertainty dear all... life is full with it anyway, just be "ikhlas" (remain pure and faithful) and do what you want to do - but don't go and sniff crack or smoke weed the whole f-ing second of your life - just let your creative mind flow to your every senses and do something with you life! whether you're facing obstacles or advantages, be grateful with it that something is going on with your life. That your life is not a complete zero sh*t!

kay .. kay .. I'll post some fun stuff over the weekend, have fun dudessss !!

Insomnia attack

I can't

I can't think clear ..

I even misplaced my !!!

I must be in another ..

Snowflakes

Woaa. can you believe it? It's officially winter already!! Since two years ago, I always have this love and hate relationship with el invierno. I love the snow flakes the second they dropped onto my face, fingers, and coat... but when it stops, slippery floor comes! and there goes walking all confident and fashionable - hello tiptoeing here and there! argh. not to mention my crackling and snake-ish skin yuck! How can I ever be sexy in winter season .. seriously!

But thank God this year I don't have to bare with this Drop Down Dreadful and Depressing weather (a.k.a the 4D's) the whole f-ing 3months, coz guess whaat!! I'm going hoooooomee ..
To be honest with you, I'm ecstatic but at the same time I don't feel like going home either. I really miss my parents and the whole shebang plus I really wanna go to several beaches in Indonesia and get really barbecued. But I kinda feel like I should just stay in NYC and spend some time with Naomi, since her OPT will expire within 2 months, subtract that with my 1 month vacation in Indonesia equals 30 more days of ...

Naomi's laugh,
Naomi's jealousy,
Naomi's love,
Naomi's calls,
Naomi's mollycoddle,
Naomi's pasta
Naomi's clumsiness
Naomi's everything !! :'(

So you see how much I'm in a problematic sitch right? and not to mention my personal relationship in which I can't and I refuse to blog about due to a handful of curious individuals that might read this post. And as for Aisha, I wouldn't worry a bit! (ya gak shah? =P )
Nami? she has her whole shebang here anyway, she'd be the happiest person in this winter for sure! All the other girls? Well they all gonna be reunited w/their fams too . So I dunno, I think it's best for me to go home right? It's too late for me to cancel my trip anyway.
In that case, I have to face the fact that 7 days from now I'm off to
mi casa ! -__-

Woopsy! I gotta go, heading to korean town and Nami's crib, so I'll post food porn tomorrow or Monday.. and again happy wintery days peeps!

Oh darn!

Fellow readers, future readers, bygone readers and the what not ..

From now on I'll only try to focus on writing food blogs n impersonal stuff that might sounded random but good to talk about ..

coz turns out freedom of speech still gets u into trouble .

n that my dear is a pretty sucky thing to live with !!

All of a sudden, yo tengo mucho frio

I feel lonely all of a sudden .
I don't know why .
I'm scared .
I'm not ready to face the truth .

why ya Allah you give me such a struggle when it comes to relationship??!
Let me have someone and have it last for a while ..

I've been single for 4 F-ing years ya Allah.
can you just spare me this one time, a chance to be happy?

a need to post a food blog

Haven't done food blogging for a while, either my restaurant selection has been pretty off or I just didn't have the money and the power to stroll around the city and find new places to dine.

But anywhoooo .. I need to do this again, since, I can see myself being an EDNOS again, and my way to satisfy my cravings is to blog and take pics of my fav. food!

yeah yeah I know it's a peculiar way to do it, since most of EDNOS members go even further away from their favorite food, but you know what ... I decided to take one step ahead and face my fears and starvation ;] hoho!

so, here it goes ..

Thanksgiving day Aisha and I decided to change our regular turkey meal habit and went with Thai food instead. Since, one live in the great Asian hood, one can easily find the best place to get that perfect hot lemony grass thai spices kick by walking just a few blocks away from one's apartment. And hell yeah nosotros decided to go to “Chao Thai” - say it with dignity guys! say it with the power to fight those spices you about to gulp down - [ohhmmmm, my tummy is rumbling now!]

Chao Thai may be one of the best Thai food spot in Queens, NY or in the whole freakin' NYC boroughs - no I'm being too dramatic on this - but seriously, it's one of my top 5 Thai restaurants in the NYC district.

So after we arrived, we sat down for about 2 minutes and a few seconds to decide what we want! And both our minds decided to order the famous drunken noodle, jungle curry and mussel pancake!

But hold up! Aisha wants to try something different, she wants the jungle curry with one bowl of rice noodles. Yeah baby! rice noodles indeed ... Waitress gave her an iffy look, but afterward she smiled like it was a perfect idea.

Few minutes of twittering and facebook-ing ...

we said hello to " Mussel Pancake "

I thought it was too greasy that at the end you filled your tummy with way too much oil. But those fried batter are pretty well spiced, the mussel tasted fresh and bits scallion pieces ushered the mussel pretty well. Oh, and they serve it with sweet and spicy sauce which gives it a fresh after taste.

ode to " El Señor Jungle Curry"

Señor Jungle Curry was pretty mesmerizing, the hotness that Aisha and I were looking for was definitely there. However, I didn't really know how the meat tasted like because I'm sort of a pescatarian and I only drank the soup and ate the veggies. LOL! But overall, that's one bitchin' curry. You know, there would come a time when some people prefer the clear soup curry rather than the creamy curries Thai restaurant usually offered, well ... the bright sky and perfect weather at that moment was the perfect time for us to devour it ... and thank God it came out perfectly.

last but not least ... my favorite dish in the whole wide Thai world


we bowed to " Pad See Ew aka De Drunken Noodle"

Never and I mean NEVER in my days of ordering this plate of goodness where it came out to be too greasy or too dry, too spicy or too bland, too much veggies less noodles, too much noodles less veggies, and other whatever pro's and con's one can imagine.
So in two simple words, their version of drunken noodle is:

“Always Perfecto”

You know that fuming thing that sizzles every time a fresh hot plate of noodles is served in front of you? Where the fragrant just melts you away into a La La Land and encourage all your senses
to join forces and gives you that enough energy to nom down all that carby thing 'til you realize your tummy could not hold those carby goodness down and you stop and you smile and you say "whoaaa... that's one f-ing marvelous noodle dish"?? You know what I'm rambling about rite?

Well guys, that's what my brain was thinking the whole 5 seconds I stare at that white plate filled with glossy colorful ingredients. I can just imagine what I could do to this food porn star .. hmmm .. Flabbergasting! That's the perfect word for it! And oh if you only heard how my tummy was screaming for more more and more ...! Oh God how am I gonna lose 5 pounds with this mean appetite?

Seriously, I could post several different angles of this food porn but I'll just give you one on each meal, which give you guys just enough info and curiosity that you decided to go there and try it yourself ...

So there you go.. I'm gonna post some more food blog later on, but for now please leave your MAC or PC for 30 minutes and go to this address:

Chao Thai (718) 424-4999
85-03 Whitney Ave
Elmhurst, NY 11373
Open Weekdays 11am-11pm

speechless

Gosh, I can't stop smiling since afternoon! This is just total madness!

And the song that's playing on my iTunes is "Like A Star by Corinne Bailey Rae" Damn it -__-

I just hope that this time everything is gonna be different since it's already the 1st of December!
and I believe that December is the month of every wishes to come true ;]
Amen to that yo'!!

It's just that now, I can't help but thinking what's gonna happen next .
here's literally the big picture of what's bothering me right now:

“?”

my whole foods experience part II (read the one below first and then read this) Got it?

Woo... that's a long title.

Ok so back to the whole foods story. Remember the Ivory Coast guy? Well after he started asking me stupid questions, we started chatting. The whole conversation was about life and how in his spiritual beliefs, I am taking things waaaay too serious! "Guy who ate one big bowl of soup with 3/4 of corn bread! YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I'M GOING THROUGH! SO SHUT THE F*CK UP! However, since I was bursting with emotion, it shows that I'm actually being in-denial. So guy, you are correct! I indeed take stuff way too deep. And he said I should enjoy my life more coz he think that I am a really lucky girl! "Trust me on this kid..." So then he took he's jacket, he's left over corn bread, and he's crap, and said goodbye...

P.S The girls sitting in front of me are sipping a pretty darn delicious soup! I should get me some of that hearty soup downstairs. Oh the madness I have to face! For the love of God please no long line.

35 minutes later ...

Boy was that an even weirder experience! Ok, I took the smallest cup of soup thinking that I would just be a sec. away from my lovely moment of slurping my soupy soup when I realize I'm encountering the longest line ever in the history of grocery shopping. Bahaha! No! that's such a drama sh*t! It was long, but it wasn't that bad. But the bathroom was super gross!

Anyways, you know what happen next?
I again manage to meet with yet another interesting person you can imagine. I mean this is a pretty crowded city, with 8 million people more or so, how on earth I met a "Bule" who can speak Indonesian, who greeted me with "Apa Kabar?" Just because he saw the way I walk?.. Pretty darn amazing.
In addition to that, he traveled 8 gazillion miles to Indonesia only to find his ass sitting at a van for days and days with .. get ready for this ..
...
...
SLANK!!

yes, he had a f-ing road trip with SLANK 20 years ago! Can you imagine?.. I can't, I seriously cant!

"Dude?! Are you serious" I said, and he's like "Are they famous now? Coz I remember that I've been the only "Bule" fan or maybe the only fan that have stayed loyal to them"
On the top of my lungs in the middle of the whole foods dining space I screamed "HELL YEAH"
So yeah, we talked for 25 min 'til I realize my lonely corn bisque is waiting alove next to the window. So I said "dadah" he said "dadah" and went our separate ways.
(Gosh cham! you made it sound like you just broke up with him)
Ok, now I'm back sitting across Union Square doing nothing but scribbling and thinking...

Dios Mio! What a weird day to go to Whole Foods.

my whole foods experience

Damn it that's like the cliche-est title ever made in this fing world of blogging. but whatever, I need to say it well and clear that there's something wrong with all my visit to whole foods. Ok so here's the story...

Every time I visit that so called green specialty grocery shop, which turns out to be un-green in any kind of way, which also turns out to be one monopoly company after all, which also is a super right-wing. Which... Ok I'm going too far with boycotting Whole Foods. haha! But I need to confess that I do enjoy their salad bar and soup selection. hmmm. dilemma!

Where was I again? oh ok, so every time I visit that f-ing place for some self lovin' (I call it my self lovin' moment, coz I usually go there by myself and I do stuff I love for hours and hours) there's always a stranger appearing out of nowhere giving me advices that although might come as a rude commentary but it's totally f-ing true! I'm like God, what is this!? The cosmic connection of Adam & Eve's lineage?

Gosh! Or am I that transparent to be read by people?

You know it's so weird how the universe works. I went out of class early, I felt gloomy inside out, so I thought "hey why not go to WF and write a bunch of non sense to eat up my excessive time?"
But then I saw a magazine and I said "Well, haven't bought a mag. for a while, so lets read something..."

So I set aside my first to-do list and start reading. 'til this Ivory Coast guy came and start asking me questions (I'm like dude go away, I want my self lovin' time OK!!) but after he's gone the first thing I did was took my book & pencil out and started writing about what just happened. So now, like what I first planned to do, I'm writing..and with a topic! Nice eiy? Yes indeed.

This is one long post. I'm gonna bore y'all to death. Should I come up with a part II?
Ok I'm gonna do that instead.

To be continued ...

snap Snap that sh*t on your email!

Ok! I just opened my hotmail and guess what I found sitting at the first line of my inbox!

Please tell me that u could totally see it? I was like WTF! do I look that desperate? do I look like I need some company over the weekend? I got my bitches yo!

But this goes to my other point of this post. Ok! So yesterday, everyone was so generous to me, I got a free latte, two beverages without any taxes, and for a second I thought "wow alhamdulillah, but when ya Allah are you going to be generous and give me a free boyfriend without drama included" Hahaha! And then the next morning that email showed up.

So maybe it's a sign from God that I am that desperate, coz why on that split seconds instead of thinking about other stuff like free food or free cloths, I was thinking of getting a free Boyf. oh God, what a loser! I think I am in need of a companion this weekend.

So for all the single guys out there, put your hands up! Mischa needs some lovin'. ;]

holiday season starts NOW

Technically it started last thursday, oh God, what am I gonna tell my kids when they asked me
"mom, what was ur college life like??"
me gonna reply "unfortunately dear kids, mama's college life is filled with mama hangin' out at the library til 3-4am in the morning....mama was such a good kiddo back then" nyohoho!

noh seriously, can anyone imagine what kind of momma I would be in the next 10-15 years?? well who would rite? but physically I think ima look like this



Ohh look at me looking so cute and adorable nyiahahah ;)
OK dolls have a fantastic and happy gaining weight week!

take a message,

Not a massage ;) ngek!

Boooo to this week filled with uncertainty
Boooo to the following days of confusion and desperation

I washed away my black hair last Sunday and my agitation went down with it *another ngek!

it wouldn't make sense at all if you don't know the real me, coz I tend to do stupido stuff that no one could understand.

happy mid week peeps