Thursday, March 11, 2010

1st anniversary

I cannot believe that I've been in the blogosphere for about a year now!
a lot has changed, except my grammatical mistakes - I think that would take more than 2 years to finally be perfecto.


Anyways getting back to change
s. Yeah, I changed, I'm not as happy as I used to be.
I'm not as adventurous,
as athletic,
as CRAZY,
as nice,
as positive (and the list goes on and on) as I used to be.

No I'm not complaining! maybe it's just time for me to be more conserved.
And yes I put crazy in capital, coz seriously, I really need to get a mental care back then.

You know, it's like my imagination is a funky mix of LSD and natural euphoria. muahah

Short story.
In my senior year back in high school, I had my period, thus I couldn't go to the mosque and pray.. So, I felt bored not doing anything, I found a white cloth and a box of 'Norit', (black tablets for stomachache and diarrhea) I put the powdery consistency onto my eyelid and all over my eyes - so it looks like I'm half dead - and I tied the white cloth around my head and I crouched in the corner of my class to wait for all the other girls who had just finished praying to come and see me looking like a 'pocong' (top notch the scariest ghost category ever)... and I stayed there for like 12 minutes. so yeah the rest of the story contains screaming here and there.
The End

So you see? when I said mental care, I totally mean it.

again, back to changes, yeah it's like impossible for me to do such things anymore.
I mean I would if the people around me were my junior high & high school friends,
now, yeahhh .. life isn't a playground anymore. I have to face things that are more deep, I guess? or more grown up-y, like dealing with how to manage my credit card, money, insurance, financial aid, actually budgeting all my expenses, facing future colleagues, networking for future jobs, and maintaining good reputation and sh*t. <---- cham please, all of the above are nothing compare to what people are really facing day by day.


But true, I was a small little spoiled brat, and I learned a lot by moving here, wait, I'm still learning btw.. and yeah I'm still a spoiled brat occasionally, but overall I moved on from my blissful crazy old days, I could go the entire day not eating anything to make my physical appearance more sexehhhh o____o and now I wouldn't do such a thing coz I might not have the energy to concentrate, study and do my homework *what?!!! haha.


and things that doesn't change are:
  • my sleep deprivation, my addiction to sweets,
  • my hopeless romantic-ness that I covered so well for the past few years,
  • my procrastination due to tv shows and movies,
  • my obsession with vampires (and no, not twilight, it all started w/ interview with the vampire,all the oldies vampire movies and buffy of course, and true blood for sure! daa?)

So that's it for now... even though this is a useless blog, but I'm glad I can write stuff and share it with anyone that might have a similar case like moi.

Adios! Buenos Noches, wait or should I say Buenos Días!??

Monday, March 8, 2010

Dudes .. hellow!!

I'm taking a break out of my ordinary rituals. I've done several amusements; looklet, uploading pics, BNET-ing, facebook-ing, twittering, (OMG, I just realized that "twittering" is an official word now? damn!) and even snacking, but still I couldn't concentrate on my Business Law readings and Creative Strategies market research project. sighhh .. I'm just one lazy b*tch.


Ok, let's take a journey to the la la land for a bit, grab a cardigans and put on your converse...


close your eyes...


if you feel weird and there's that annoying song from an ice cream truck that keeps on playing inside your mind, then open your iTunes and pick a song... pick a song you really really like!

right now I'm playing Richard Ashcroft - Song for the Lovers


close your eyes again...


just go to wherever your mind is taking you, wherever your song is guiding you.
just stay that way 'til the end of the song and feel it, really feel it ...

the peacefulness...
the outrages or maybe the ordinary-but-fun scene you've pictured while you were closing your eyes and listening to that particular song.

This is what I got ...



In conclusion, it's all in the mind. When you feel distressed, depressed, cranky, annoyed, bored, lazy, or unproductive, just do that for like 5 to 10 min, and maybe just maybe you'll feel better.. you'll feel recharged. Or in my case, I feel like taking a long nap and just deal with these projects last minute. Buahahah.

Adios!